HOPELESS Romantic

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Ain't That The Truth.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder everytime. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

that makes me feel better ^^ tehe hopefully u guys can learn from this too.

ok now that thats over with. i wanna have some fun theres a carnival at the shea stadium parking lot and i still havent went =[ its over at the end of the month im thinking about going this weekend who wants to join? i no its queens and its lame but i havent been to a big carnival and im a total dork for these things and well i'd ask white power but i already told him too many times so i guess i probably visit it alone. =\ poop. maybe they'll be a hot guy working at the ferris wheel xP

<3 i love you guys.

[edit]: wat do u think about booty calls? haha sounds interresting maybe i'll give it a try damn u lila and ur sex dates. damn haha how do u plan a sex date. this is gunna be quite awkward. exact words "play some video games and stuff.. listen to some music..and see what happens" translate boy speak= "Lets chill and then fuck" haha iono sounds interesting...should i give it a try? i no randy's answer is YES and well lila's most likely YES...maybe this is a good thing :D aww i cant stop blushing a nice guy actually wants to fuck me. haha wow i have a huge low self esteem problem today. ok Angel's gunna shuddup and watch some porn xP till next time...~

Stop Being Emo

alright since that last entry was wayyyyy too emo and was suppose to be more contemplative then emo and i have nothign to do or dont feel like doing anything i'll write another entry. lol so ok we must learn from our experiences good or bad i shuldnt regret anything i also need a cigarette but thats besides the point white power is a nice guys and made me like him again also reason why im being emo cuz i no this wont last very long i wanna stop this sick cycle but i like gettin myself into stupid situations so why not ride the train? i wish he'd just come to a damn conclusion soon cuz i think he's being lazy and not fixing his problem maybe he does need to speak to her tho im afraid i mite loose him more iono but wat is there to loose? he likes her he likes her. he gets screwed over...well he gets screwed over. sadly i will be there to comfort him till i get sick of it. im not sure wat to be like wen im with him im stubborn and i dont want him to get the best of me =\ humph....i do wanna be just friends but ugh...its sucks feeling lonely. iono i also wants things to work out but thats as impossible as being just friends. dammit robo boy fix ur glitch fast. cuz im getting sick of cf maybe cuz everyone has been in a bad mood iono its like a cf depression i think im gunna stay away for a while maybe it'll give robo boy some time to fix himself. =T

dammit that was kinda emo too i cant get away from it. i need a stog dammit argg...smoking in the rain was probably the worst way to use my last cigarette.

i have so much shit to do but no motivation.

Moving on?

Sorry for the randomness for the previous entry i have my reasons plus that song related to my week and well the baby part...romero knows wat i mean. desmonds house is pretty insane tripping in i had fun tho playing MvC2 and watching random anime lol i dont care wat u say lloyd and steven xP i liked Fatal Fury the Motion Picture O.K. PSH. i've been trying to be happy some of it feels fake cuz deep dwn i feel like i have an infected wound that im ignoring hoping that it will fix itself.

can we really be just friends? i can but ur messing with my head pretty badly everyone has been telling me things some thigns i no already somethings i dont wanna hear and somethings i wish i was told earlier. im not sure if i was forwarned if i would have done anything differently sad thing was i forwarned myself and him b4 anything happened but he didnt listen and i just lied to myself but eventually i moved on from wat was holding me back but he still hasnt maybe mine doesnt root as deeply as his but from wat i've been hearing it wasnt a serious thing iono people tell me not to dwell and he'll come along sooner or later if he knows wats good for him. i dont wanna wait around. he thinks he can get me back if i move on but iono im not sure wat i see in him cuz he probably by far has treated me the worst out of all my past relationships maybe thats why i tried so hard to make it work. i feel so used sumtimes like worthless like a tissue u use and throw out but if u have no tissues left u pick it back up and use it some more till u get more tissues. odd thing is a lot of my old guy friends have been talking to me and trying to hangout but im not sure of there motives cuz i've been hurt a lot most of them i no are honestly good guys and some i used to have crushes on and they probably would treat me so much better but ARG@(*&(*&$#(*&$(!&$)!*@!!! ioono its like he's nice to me wen im pissed off so i forget im mad and think about how nice he is sometimes he just doesnt realize wat he says hurts a lot sometimes i mean even if its true somethings arent ment to be told if it will do more damage than good who tells their partner that they are still in love with their ex-partner and expect their partner to be HAPPY i mean its understandable but its sumthing that ruins any moment and ruins they way they think about u and feel about u and the way they think about themselves. sigh* i dont no people are saying i should choose but i hate choosing im indecisive but so is he and he is probably more stubborn than i am and i can be stubborn so i guess the best thing to do is move on. and if he REALLY changes and i mean really changes i'll think about it cuz i dont like mind games nor being played with if he doesnt move on himself then i guess he wasnt worth my time i hate that he thinks he can control me cuz truthfully im still here cuz some part of me feels bad cuz he's so lost and he reminds me of me i feel like i should help him out i cant ever see sumone suffering and leave it alone but hes so damn stubborn worse than i am and i feel like just giving up on him if he really doesnt change im not sure how long i can wait. my heartaches everytime im with him cuz i just dont understand his actions. i HAVE to be STRONG. i will not give in anymore. for once i want him to do the work im sick of trying so hard and not gettin anything to show for it not even that warm fuzzy feeling inside of wen ur trully cared about for once i liked to be treated nicely once and a while maybe catered to cuz i'd cater to him wen ever he needed but he wouldnt for me he even said he'd do it for her on the drop of a hat but not for me...how would that make anyone feel? SHIT. it makes u feel like SHIT like ur not worth anything tho i shuldnt think that way b.c i tried my best. i did things for him i havent done for most guys it just HURTS. he's not a bad guy he has his faults just i refuse to wait around. i need to be stronger...dammit i will be stronger.

^^ sigh* time to start planning some fun things to do =]

"The best part of a relationship is rebound sex"

<3 Angel

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